When all is said and done, it really doesn’t seem like that long ago that I made the announcement that I was pregnant and now here I am writing my final pregnancy update.
While there were certainly times where I felt like I’d been pregnant forever, most of the journey flew by. Lately I feel like time just slips between my fingers and my biggest goal is to live each day and cherish every moment. When I talk to new moms and mom blogs, what they say most often is how fast the time goes. It actually scares me a bit, but I hope that I can use this knowledge to my advantage in trying to enjoy each moment.
I guess that’s why I’ve said many times that I am not in a hurry to rush my baby to come out. I wanted to savor these last few days as a mom-to-be and as a family of two. There is no going back, so why not enjoy what is left of this time?
Then Thursday hit. All of a sudden I started to feel anxious about meeting my little girl, and I really wanted her to come on her own versus being induced. I started getting a little upset when a friend who was due after I was had her baby yesterday. I started having contractions last night that were more powerful and regular than usual, and then…they stopped. So as it stands right now, I just don’t see her coming naturally.
How I’m feeling physically
I feel pretty good actually. Considering that I’m home a lot and resting, my body is not in nearly as much pain as it was during my last week at work. And I know I’m bigger and more swollen now, but I still feel better. I’m a nesting freak and feel that I want to clean and organize everything. Even with increased activity and more walking, I still feel more energetic and less achy. I’ve been thinking a lot about my body too. Even though it looks so different now, I’ve gotten used to it and I can’t really imagine going back to being bump-free (or having a much smaller bump). I’m curious and scared as to what my body will look like after I give birth. I pray that I can be kind and accepting of whatever state my body is in. I can’t even begin to describe how grateful and amazed I am at what it has been able to accomplish on its own. I will focus on continuing to love my body through the next stages it is about to go through.
A few more notes on my current mental state
Mentally I feel okay, I’m just a bit cranky and very anti-social. My phone rings a lot and I really don’t ever feel like picking it up. Everyone wants news, but I don’t have any and it upsets me when I have to repeat that over and over. Yesterday I told Joe that I feel like a chicken that is about to lay a golden egg or something. I know everyone is excited and showing love and care through reaching out. I’m just in a weird place though, it is nothing personal.
What I’ve been eating
I’m still completely obsessed with goat cheese and eat it every day either on toast or in a salad. Today I had it on an arugula salad alongside a leftover turkey burger.
Also still into grapefruit. It is so darn good.
And another favorite are Haribo raspberry candies
Week 40 bump
I guess that’s about it…not much else to report! Just going to enjoy this weekend and wait to see what happens. I can’t believe this is my last Friday ever not being a mom. Wow. Better go live it up! Before I know it I’ll be rocking mom jeans and driving a minivan.
Previous pregnancy updates HERE.