Yesterday when reading one of the two issues of Runner’s World I received in the mail, I felt an overwhelming sense of insecurity.
I guess I expected the articles to talk to "me" more, but I felt like they were talking to my cooler, faster, more experienced runner friend.
As I read some of your comments and reflected on my reaction to the magazine, I realized that there was more to those feelings then I recognized at first.
I was actually doubting myself and my abilities as a runner. I compared myself with runners in the magazine and began to question my commitment to the sport.
I had a junior high moment where I began to feel that I couldn’t "fit in" with the Runner’s World reader.
WHY did I do this?
I think I’ve been fighting these emotions throughout my entire journey to becoming a runner. I wondered if I would give up on myself, if I would fail at this, and if my new healthy attitude and lifestyle would diminish.
After my reflection yesterday I realized that I need to be a bigger cheerleader for myself. I need to give myself more credit and feel proud of the accomplishments I’ve made as a runner.
I must tell the voice in my head to stop telling me that I’m not fast enough or dedicated enough.
This morning I’m happy to say that as I sit here reading another issue of Runner’s World I’ve let down my walls of insecurity and started to see articles and tips that speak to ME.
Yes ME, the dedicated runner who was out yesterday running 8 miles in 30 degree weather to train for her second half marathon in 4 months.
Are you your biggest cheerleader?
Do you ever find yourself doubting your abilities?
What do you do to stop that?
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