Maybe it’s just me.. (I don’t think it is)…but I’ve realized that ever since I’ve been pregnant I’ve felt some pressure to be the perfect, cute, healthy pregnant lady.
I think in the back of my mind, I was always worried about this- but now some of my fears are being realized.
As a curvier person who has battled with weight for many years, I always wondered if people would even know that I was pregnant and not just think "she let herself go". I also feared that all of the work it took to finally get me to a happy place with my body would be lost.
On top of these fears came the fact that my plantar fasciitis had stopped me from working out for quite sometime, and before I even got pregnant I was battling a new 5-6 pound gain that wouldn’t go away. I kept thinking to myself how scary it would be to gain 20-35 pounds on top of what I had already gained back.
In addition to my own insecurities, I started reading stories of other women’s pregnancy journeys and comparing myself to them. Some of the talked often about how they can still wear all of their pre-pregnancy clothing or how their workout routines are still going strong.
Meanwhile I was ready to buy a pair of maternity jeans at 12 weeks and hadn’t stepped foot in the gym all summer. I guess I failed at the cute, healthy, pregnancy thing.
The truth is, as I’m starting to understand, is that my pregnancy journey is just that….IT’S MINE. And this time in my life will be a fleeting moment that I’m sure I will barely remember in a few years when I have my hands full of kids and other responsibilities.
Even my doctor told me…"ENJOY THIS TIME. IT GOES FAST". The doctor also told me to stop being so hard on myself about my recent food choices and my weight gain. I may not have been where I wanted to be weight-wise when I got pregnant, but this is the time that it was meant for me to get pregnant- and that is all that matters. I’m blessed and lucky enough to be able to carry a child, and for that I will be forever grateful.
And hey, maybe a little extra cushioning will make my hips softer and more comfortable when I hold my child against them.
My health is my responsibility and it is my obligation to do my best during my pregnancy to eat well and be physically active. These days my food choices are becoming more varied, and I’m still very physically active at my job (swimming, playing sports and running after kids). And for now, I"m doing what I can. Hey, the day is short when you can’t stay awake past 9pm.
Anyhow, sorry for all of the rambling- I just wanted to share with you all some of what I’ve been experiencing. My journey is just beginning, and I’m sure there will be so many changes along the way. Thanks for keeping me company!